Have you ever wondered in awe how all our lives are intertwined as if we belonged together.
All our stories run parallel in way or the other. Yet, we fool ourselves in thinking that we are unique, drifting alone and forgotten in this marvelous Universe.
Today as we went through the pre-registration for my father in law’s next stay in the hospital to continue with his salvage regimen of chemo-therapies, towards the end of the paperwork the clerk who was helping us shared her own story. After hesitating she told us that her dad also is going through Non Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.
She kindly told us all about him, and we felt humbled and blessed to the least. She really didn’t have to share anything in fact. She shared their pain as a family and how hard it was not only for the patient, but also for them.
She really didn’t have to tell us anything, we were just two strangers that were doing what needed to be done.
During all this process in occasions we feel alone and heartbroken that someone we love has to go through all the pain that cancer brings with it.
Sometime before my father’s last stay in the hospital, my husband told me quietly that,
“I haven’t let myself cry over Papi.”
I really didn’t have an answer to that, but the day I left both of his parents (which I love deeply as a daughter), I allowed myself to cry over him for the first time. I’m not fond of doing such because I believe that it’s not over until it’s over. Then, we’ll have time to grieve and move on eventually.
I felt very lonely in my car as I poured my heart out in pure grief.
My thoughts went back in time and saw a younger version of him handing my house keys to me. He had literally bought us our home. He didn’t give my husband the keys, he gave them to me.
It meant a lot to me back then and it still does.
Yet my memories didn’t stop there, they went even further in time and recalled how he gave me money to go and buy all my school supplies for my freshman year. I bought a bunch of notebooks, pens, pencils, erasers, files, markers and two gigantic dictionaries (No internet back then).
Then they jumped to my wedding, went back to when he had gotten out of his way trying to find the perfect crib. I wanted it white with a bunch of requirements he was more than happy to meet. All these random memories had no chronological order, yet shared something similar, they were all full of love.
I remained a while just pouring my heart out and then moved on. I needed to get home and leave them behind.
Through this difficult time we have all grown one way or the other. However, I have come to learn that we are not alone. All of us share similar stories and when the time is right and the occasion rises we share them and connect in ways that may even seem impossible.
We stop if we are in a hurry to listen, we appreciate and are thankful for kind and compassionate words of those who have endured our same path, and most of all we are humbled with the blessings we have each day.
So, my dear friend next time you fall into the temptation of thinking you are alone in the vast world, think again and open your mind and life to the blessings of the stories that surround us.