It’s been a while since any song has touched me, however I was profoundly moved by hearing John Bell’s The Summons.
My daughter sent it to me so I could understand why she wanted to become a minister. This next fall she’ll be attending Seminary either in Princeton or Chicago. She’s not going to be the ordinary minister, but the way out of the box one. She’ll lead protests, rallies and will put herself on the line over and over again, and my heart bleeds just by the thought of it. However, she is what she is and I’m nobody to put my voice in her head saying, “She can’t do it”.
Her turning point was becoming a volunteer in a church in Tucson, Arizona that became a sanctuary during the San Salvador Civil War. She got out of her comfort zone and went for it, without full understanding what she was getting into.
She feels strongly about social injustice and is adamant in women’s rights. As the song’s lyrics go by, there is a part that says, “Would you kiss the leper clean, if I would call your name?”
I’m more than sure she would.
However, this post isn’t about her or her calling. It’s about the voices inside us, my friends know I’m a strong believer in signs and precisely yesterday as I attended service at my church, the person who was sharing a reflection in our Sunday Bible School (which I usually don’t attend), asked us why we had believed?
How did we become believers, where and how our calling occurred?
Isn’t the purpose of soul-searching spiritual en-lightning, so we can make a difference in the world that surround us? Part of the lyrics of The Summons said, “Will you use the faith you’ve found to reshape the world around?”.
Some shared stories that seemed to come out of a twilight dimension, others said it was logic, others said that they had heard voices, others said that they had feared to come to the front of the congregation, but had felt the need to move forward.
As I listened carefully to other people, I wondered myself, why was I there?
Does your calling come only once in life or does it come many times?
Yesterday as I thought about writing on my blog, my thoughts drifted and ended up not writing anything.
However, today when Steph sent me this song, it all came back to me.
I asked myself, why do I continue going back to that building that is as old as I am and continue to sit on the same pew, and listen to the same people?
Is that really what I’m suppose to do?
If I’m truly a believer and God knows I am, is it true that If He did call my name, why haven’t I followed him?
Why am I the same person???
I’m not even sure if I’ve really heard anyone, less God himself calling my name.
Or is it that He has called my name, but I haven’t turned and listened carefully enough?
It’s so easy to fall inside a fantasy world where being a believer is all about attending service every Sunday, saying God bless you, and hugging people just like us. And so hard at the same time, to step outside this world and truly become believers and reshape all that surrounds us, making it a better place, while putting ourselves out there where we can be harmed in the process.
This is my dear friend, the question of all the questions, how far are we willing to go, if our names were called?